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It seems like my senior year has been riddled with obstacles, one right after the other. Every time I get something done, there's another obstruction waiting, ready for me to trip over. I'm tired. I want to just throw my hands up and say I quit. Why does it seem like everyone else has worked the opposite as me - I've worked my butt off since freshman year and then now it gets down to it and I'm done. I'm tired of working. I want nothing more than to suddenly get really sick or break a bone or something so that I have to take a break. Every assignment is harder than it should be, but in reality I haven't had such easy classes since 9th grade (even with the college classes).

And I don't have any help at home either. For some reason, my mom's ready to quit, too. Her thought process seems to be along the lines of "Okay, I've supported her for the last 17 years, now I'm done." This upcoming month is going to be the most difficult, crucial month of my life. I haven't even begun to prepare for anything. In three weeks I'm flying to New York City to perform monologues that I haven't even begun to memorize. The weekend prior and following to this, I'll be performing a play onstage that I have half-memorized, and can't seem to remember the lazzi's and blocking for. I'm too far in it to give up and quit and go to SCF for the next two years and then transfer out. I don't think I could live with myself.

I don't know how I'm going to overcome these obstacles. I don't know anything.